neocities i will kill you if you dont start working again NEOW. im so close to finishing what i was working on come on mannnn
WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP VOTING FOR MELVIN?? theyre probably just trolling cause i put the (why) after his name but gawddamn. he surpassed isaac that is insane you people are twisted.
man i will never understand people who are obsessed with celebrities. ik its probably much weirder to obsess over fictional characters like me lol but idk i just genuinely dont get it. like that is an actual person just a random dude why would you treat them like that just because theyre famous. i like some actors too but id never even think to make a stan acc or something... i like their acting and movies or just think they look kinda cool but i dont like the actual person i mean idk that guy! same thing with most influencers
ahhhh yes....
i kinda want to make a blog page again or like a diary or something but i always tend to overshare on those or get myself down by spiraling into shitty thoughts but hmmm. also lots oft people that know me irl look at my page. eughhh i just miss having somewhere where i can write about whatever
hehe all these depressing updates... i really gotta get my grind back on. been feeling very weird lately
being tormented by artblock rn...sigh. sorry for no cool updates im not very motivated to do anything. just gotta wait till i feel better ig
ok guys being sick actually rlly sucks i cant stop caughing every few seconds its so baddddd. can a silly wizard please brew me a concoction or something? some herbs?
*stares intently at rogier elden ring*
its so hot outside i could melt but i still somehow managed to catch a cold. truly impressive.
i feel so weak grahhhh im coughing and shit (cringe). also i wanna finish metal gear rising but senator armstrong is beating my ass so hard rn. i mean the fight is challenging sure and it would be totally chill if it wasnt for that one godforsaken blademode event with the cars. its so frustrating and idk if i can do it because i somehow mess it up within a nanosecond every time. also im super unlucky with the rng. eh whatever ill get him some day
the overlord opening and ending have no right to go so hard lol.
trashy animes always have the best music
kinda funny how neocities always either have a super edgy or super cutesy aesthetic lol or cottage/fairy core type stuff (the three genders). also was thinking of maybe drawing something for pride month but eh... all my drawings are pretty gay anyways and personally i dont rlly care for pride stuff. cause i kinda hate rainbows and all the cooperations trying to sell you shit. and i dont like using flags and labels for myself. but still- happy pride month to my little fruitcups out there
(so basically all of you cause i cant imagen a cishet person looking at my website )
i wonder if i count as a niche internet micro celebrity. sure hope not cuz that would make me 20% more insufferable
me and my boyfriend (i am actually insane)
finally finished my first playthrough of elden ring a few days ago lol... 130 hours. doing NG+ without summons now to get the ranni and normal ending so ill have all the achievements. going very well so far just did morgott everything is soooo much faster than first time.
im feeling kind of sad rn tho... having trouble functioning and communicating with my autistic realness or something. feel like im being a bad friend
really wish i could channel all this nervous and hyper energy im having into being productive....but alas
guys sorry for being a bit inactive.... im busy. busy being a gamer :/ i really havent done shit the last few days lol. my sleeping schedule is totally messed up as well and uh yeah
god why does the autoplay music sometimes work and sometimes not? so annoying. for the longest time i thought safari doesn’t support auto play music in general but now some of them work???for some reason?? well safari is bs anyway it always glitches my gifs and does weird shit i cant fix. but im having trouble on chrome too now. idk ig its not that important...just bothersome. maybe its because i use vocaroo
check out this delectable olive playlist. tried to make it a mix of songs that fit her vibe and songs she would listen to herself (the fandom songs lol. not enough nightcore tho i know)
honestly idk why i draw varre so much hes not even my favorite character or anything but hes pretty silly ig. he grew on me i didnt rlly get the hype at first but yeahhhhh i GUESS hes pretty okayyyy ig hes pretty goofy ig i kinda like him. the fanart convinced me. also hes like a evil doctor gay guy pathetic old man wich are some of my favorite things ngl. prawn guy and rogier 4 life tho. (also i know his actual name but im gonna keep calling him prawn guy idc)
im craving the mcdonalds chicken wings so bad recently... god...i think theyll take them off the menu soon tho hhhrrrrr
actually kind of happy with how much my art improved in the last few months. i got a lot better at drawing faces and doing a more semi realistic style i think... (cause of elden ring lmao what else) kinda funny to compare my first fanart of it with the new ones. its not old at all (februrary/early march) but it looks like trash and i rlly like the new one. idk. its almost like practice pays off. who would have thought! also learning how to use clip studio... i like switching up my mediums and brushes once in a while it helps me not get stuck/bored. i dont want to jinx anything tho i can already smell the next artblock
should i make this like my new log thing? cause i stopped using the old one. ig i already do use this one like that...like to talk abt random stuff or my thoughts and opinions hmm. kind of miss oversharing on here lmao. no one reads this anyway. i had fun on my birthday btw i slept a lot and streamed elden ring to my friends on discord. tbh i would love being a streamer im good at commentary i think but like hell no that would never work out
^this fr^
^ i got "rude gay middleschooler (like teruki from mp100)" seems about right^
^such a good gif^
i think my type in men is "literally just some guy but theres something kinda wrong with him" (example: laius thorden, Alfred, robby from victorious, that guy from saw etc etc)
thinking abt how much i hate the way internet people sexualize everything. i feel like its limiting me in the way i want to create characters etc... for example i feel kind of uneasy when i draw isaac in cute outfits cause so many people see it as some weird kink shit. if someone ever calls him a femboy im throwing hands. (besides..that term sucks anyway). he literally just enjoys fashion... i hate how feminine guy characters are treated in general. well i think hes not even that feminine but ig compared to most he is and im just delusional lol.
^retweeted this weeks ago but i still think abt it so much. perfect image. i wish gay people were real^
why am i sad because of homestuck. this is fucked up i thought i left this type of foolishness in 2020. blasphemous. i just want gamzee and eridan to be happy...
yesterday i beat margit in elden ring and he was SUCH a bitch. i kind of cheesed it (used the summon and my imp ashes) but it still took over 2 hours. damn... i was very discouraged afterwards but then i looked at all the people online who used super cheese tactics or took like 4 days and now i feel better. i mean its my first time actually playing a souls game myself. at least i was determined and beat him in one sitting!
found this
clipnote for windows? Interesting
^man i gotta play this game fr. looks delightful........ im so lazy tho^
^i think abt this guy a lot. such a captivating video^
